Sunday, March 7, 2010
ranting post start:
"you keep going on like that, something's going to happen. we are doing things to prevent you from going on like that. but if we scold you it's straight down the hill. conclusion? we can't do anything to help you really."i'm pissed. i am. natalie may be right. it's fucken irritating. at first it was just okay, we understand. now it's downright irritating. no matter what we do, it's still the same. so guess what? i'd rather not do anything.
blah, boring day today, lazing at home doing homework. i never have the time to do stuff. never. once the holidays come, i may be happy, once it ends, the cycle starts all over again. i have an oral exam on tuesday. blah, i just can't bring myself to be bothered. yes, currently at this point in time, i feel no drive and have no goal. i wish i can have a goal, it's just so boring to be like a wanderer. i am looking forward to fun events though. i've decided to do something about myself, instead of just complaining. i keep complaining and complaining and tell myself to do it next time. perhaps i know next time i would really do it, but how about doing it now? it doesn't hurt to do it now and the advantages overpower the disadvantages. i always read about how easily people get inspired. i don't even know what inspires me. maybe i should find a direction in my life. maybe i should. maybe people should stop thinking about how nature would end everything and focus on ourselves. maybe.
what we could have been, 4:20 AM.
