Friday, January 29, 2010
「どうして 私じゃだめなの?」...
...「どうして こんなに好きなのに」
"Why am i useless? "
"Why do i still like it this way?"
I love Miliyah Kato's song. It just makes me cry...
i am disappointed, sad, depressed these days. i get mad easily, i cry easily. why do i cry more and more when i grow older? isn't it supposed to be opposite. i'm just too confused. school and family. why, why am i always treated not seriously. i can't stand it. i feel unwanted. i really do, even if it's a joke. i just take it too seriously, not that i'm petty. i want everything to go back to how it was. when i was going home, i saw a kindergarten boy, and how cheerful and close he was to his father, then i look at myself. why. why is it that this can no longer happen?
today was fun (: , i guess.
i was kind of late for school since my stomach was aching.
had phototaking. looked damn crapped up. seriously, every year also like that. sucks to have big face.
then had physics, miss ting was okay ba.
then history, kind of fun, and looking forward to next lesson since we'll be debating :D
cool! germany vs france for the war thing, im on the french side!
after that is english, didn't present today.
I CAN SOOOO READ HOW MANY SIBLINGS PEOPLE HAVE!
WOO ME!
after recess is chemistry!
i was like saying to caitlin," caitlin, you very cute! can i hug you?"
then i hugged her xD
she's sooo cute.
then she said i look fun. LOL FUN.
so i was like," Huh? fun? you mean sesame street kind of fun?"
and she said ya. LOL.
actually i don't know why i said sesame street hmm, maybe cos like half the characters smile retardedly.
chemistry did chromatography! :D my dyes all shoot up like fireworks, according to belinda.
then ce talk about chem SPA! haha, mr lim say until quite difficult yet easy to score!
i scared get olh! she catch skirtttt!!!
had 30mins before chinese!
the test is superrr easy! :D
and wtffff! mdm jiang going to retest the mingyanjingju! BUT I FORGOTTTTT EVERYTHINGGGG. anyway i got like 10/13, which is alr quite good! urgh!!!
anyway, go opposite eat. every friday also sameeee!
then rain, natalie xi sheng for us! walk in rain :O
then we went up!
sec 1s come alr, but pipa no sec 1s.
lian with mulaoshi group who tune always lower==
then jingxuan, me and zihui decided go staircase lian while elaine go classroom.
hah! zihui was like damn scared of ncc chionging up.
lian halfway(ok not really half YET), then saw marcus tan!
then say hi to him. then he went down and chat with me for awhile.
his cca like slack today cause games day! @@ in the past co got icebreaker de!
but now don't have. :( sad.
anyway, lian and jump about to the classroom. pretty slack hoho.
then see marcus again, then his arm is like brown with some disgusting thing, which he claims is human shit, but obviously is not.
turns out is some fermented stuff @@ eee.
it's part of their games. ours like, just go inside lian qin do nothing hur, cos like all the tanboyue is DSA de.
then jihe! i think cos we abit slack then mr ng set some rules ><" packed stuff and went homeeeeee with huixuan and belinda. we all bought ice cream ;3 then 101 come, i took it while huixuan go top up card. and saw puaysuan! homg! :O then she alight one stop before me! so shocked! cos like she alr change and bathe and i think she went for CO O_O anyway, reach home, mian dui my mother's lianse due to my 2nd sis. then cried due to somethings. hais. sian sian sian sian, this weekend will pass super fast. finally cutting my hair tomorrow! happy happy! :D
i was kind of late for school since my stomach was aching.
had phototaking. looked damn crapped up. seriously, every year also like that. sucks to have big face.
then had physics, miss ting was okay ba.
then history, kind of fun, and looking forward to next lesson since we'll be debating :D
cool! germany vs france for the war thing, im on the french side!
after that is english, didn't present today.
I CAN SOOOO READ HOW MANY SIBLINGS PEOPLE HAVE!
WOO ME!
after recess is chemistry!
i was like saying to caitlin," caitlin, you very cute! can i hug you?"
then i hugged her xD
she's sooo cute.
then she said i look fun. LOL FUN.
so i was like," Huh? fun? you mean sesame street kind of fun?"
and she said ya. LOL.
actually i don't know why i said sesame street hmm, maybe cos like half the characters smile retardedly.
chemistry did chromatography! :D my dyes all shoot up like fireworks, according to belinda.
then ce talk about chem SPA! haha, mr lim say until quite difficult yet easy to score!
i scared get olh! she catch skirtttt!!!
had 30mins before chinese!
the test is superrr easy! :D
and wtffff! mdm jiang going to retest the mingyanjingju! BUT I FORGOTTTTT EVERYTHINGGGG. anyway i got like 10/13, which is alr quite good! urgh!!!
anyway, go opposite eat. every friday also sameeee!
then rain, natalie xi sheng for us! walk in rain :O
then we went up!
sec 1s come alr, but pipa no sec 1s.
lian with mulaoshi group who tune always lower==
then jingxuan, me and zihui decided go staircase lian while elaine go classroom.
hah! zihui was like damn scared of ncc chionging up.
lian halfway(ok not really half YET), then saw marcus tan!
then say hi to him. then he went down and chat with me for awhile.
his cca like slack today cause games day! @@ in the past co got icebreaker de!
but now don't have. :( sad.
anyway, lian and jump about to the classroom. pretty slack hoho.
then see marcus again, then his arm is like brown with some disgusting thing, which he claims is human shit, but obviously is not.
turns out is some fermented stuff @@ eee.
it's part of their games. ours like, just go inside lian qin do nothing hur, cos like all the tanboyue is DSA de.
then jihe! i think cos we abit slack then mr ng set some rules ><" packed stuff and went homeeeeee with huixuan and belinda. we all bought ice cream ;3 then 101 come, i took it while huixuan go top up card. and saw puaysuan! homg! :O then she alight one stop before me! so shocked! cos like she alr change and bathe and i think she went for CO O_O anyway, reach home, mian dui my mother's lianse due to my 2nd sis. then cried due to somethings. hais. sian sian sian sian, this weekend will pass super fast. finally cutting my hair tomorrow! happy happy! :D
what we could have been, 4:32 AM.
